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I've written a dozen poems like this
they make me feel sick, they clench my ribs
searching for the words to match.
I start them same, the kindness in your
hipbones, your heart swelling in my gut,
the swallowing of each other with water
or a cold drink. Not to be chewed.
I continue with the distance, drinking wine
from a plastic bottles and clutching a telephone
on Rue de Foch. You talk to me for while and hang up,
you cycle around Canada for hours,
searching for something that may or may not be me
and I wait by the phone, by the keyboard, clicking my mouse.
Then I tell the story of when we both come back
and you are ugly, and I am embarrassed.
Your face is a cancerous lung and it disgusts me,
you spill yoghurt on my bedsheets and shove
sharp crisps in your mouth,
you offer me one and I am afraid.
Next is the months after, the years after:
my skin looks strange. I'm an alcoholic.
I puke up everything I eat, everything I feel,
everything that reminds me of you
and I still wait by the phone, by the keyboard,
clicking my mouse and you
you are still ugly.
they make me feel sick, they clench my ribs
searching for the words to match.
I start them same, the kindness in your
hipbones, your heart swelling in my gut,
the swallowing of each other with water
or a cold drink. Not to be chewed.
I continue with the distance, drinking wine
from a plastic bottles and clutching a telephone
on Rue de Foch. You talk to me for while and hang up,
you cycle around Canada for hours,
searching for something that may or may not be me
and I wait by the phone, by the keyboard, clicking my mouse.
Then I tell the story of when we both come back
and you are ugly, and I am embarrassed.
Your face is a cancerous lung and it disgusts me,
you spill yoghurt on my bedsheets and shove
sharp crisps in your mouth,
you offer me one and I am afraid.
Next is the months after, the years after:
my skin looks strange. I'm an alcoholic.
I puke up everything I eat, everything I feel,
everything that reminds me of you
and I still wait by the phone, by the keyboard,
clicking my mouse and you
you are still ugly.
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it's only everything
how to apologize
to the air
that I breathe
for the fear of loss
that costs
everything
when this grip
that grasps
forever
is so suffocating
when your ears
have grown tired
of these
sad songs I sing
see, panic
and I have spent
so much time
alone
that fright forms
my features
etched its shape
in my bones
and while
I long to make
my heart your home
all flaws
in design are
completely my own
I'm awkward
I'm anxious
but I'm also
all yours
for the rest
of the years
my dust circles
this earth
and though I know
to you it must
seem quite absurd
I hope to rebuild
on the strength
of these words
said
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I Want to Love Like
I want to love like
the Apocalypse or
a Ginsberg poem
screaming, raving madly in the streets
over some little nothing.
Like a .45, safety off
nothing holding back combustion
but will and luck
which are two things
that have only ever come my way
in spurts.
I'd decided to love you like this
No veil, no wall, nothing
but a prayer a
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Love Poem
..
last night I made a man
out of pillows and forgotten
fragments of clothes
we'd pushed into my drawers.
I held my pillow-man's hand
and made sure he wasn't too warm
because it is summer;
I'm on the second floor;
and that was always your
biggest complaint.
this morning I tried to shower
but would turn off the water and run
like a soapy dog, complete with
loyal tail wagging, to the door
thinking you'd come knocking.
You hadn't.
tomorrow will taste like
the food of a week ago
and I'll wear sunglasses,
which, if you know me,
(and you do)
will seem out of context
and like a little girl
playing dress up.
I know there are
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I loved the repeat of the waiting by the phone and clicking the mouse, and the end was just like a very reserved *bam*